Fall afresh on me...

"Did you not know I was about my father's business" -Luke 2:49

Recently, I have really been struggling with The Lord, just sinning to sin. Sexual immorality, prideful, and hatred is just scratching the surface. But about a week or so ago my roommate and friend had prayed over me. Because with me, I don't really like to tell people what I am struggling with, just that i'm struggling. I don't want people to be disappointed with me, and think that all I do is sin (but that is really what I do because I'm human, and not perfect). Anyways both of these women prayed over me and my roommate made a statement which said that God said "Am I not bigger than your struggles?" Well of course my heart just breaks into a million pieces, because of the fact : JESUS ALWAYS MAKES A WAY TO ESCAPE! It was just that I wasn't taking the way out and just drowning in my sin, then getting upset with myself afterwards. 

I let that sit on me for a while and just remember to use the escape plan. So for the past week I have been finding escape plans and using them. But then I realized that I hadn't read my bible in a long time.  So with this past Sunday I decided to pick up my bible. I had been struggling where to read, then I just decided [go to the gospels] so I went to Luke. While reading Luke, I got Inspired. Never in the history of my walk with Jesus have I ever been inspired by the bible like I was then. It just made me feel rejuvenated about my love Christ all over again. Also I have been reading Matthew Henry's commentary and it has really helped. I am starting to love the bible all over again and it is just beautiful. 

Also, both of my jobs have been going really good this week. Jesus has really been giving me grace, compassion, and the ability to love my kids. So i am so grateful for my jobs and that I can show Christ through them. 

While reading through Luke 2, I can across this verse (the one at the top) and really just set me back. Because we (as lovers of Christ) we should be about our Father's business.  We should know in our heart that Jesus has a plan for our lives, and that we should be striving for His character, nature, and what He would do. It is so important not to get caught up in the world and what the world has to offer because it is WORTHLESS. The way of the world is crooked and perverse, and we are suppose to be the light, the salt, the city on a hill. And if we are getting caught up in the world then we are not being about His business. So I just encourage you and myself to really stay focused on Him and what He wants to do in and through you! .